im gonna start learin to live in a world where i only think about myself.

ive had enough of it..

oo.. im having exam tmr

rashes rashes go away..
come aga.. No..
dun u ever come again..

-.-"

having rashes and little red spots.. itchy and irritating..~~ urg!!

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din go school todae.. the IAP presentation totally slip off my mind..
guilty about this cos marketing wad cancelled just for us to have the presentation.. and the teacher also waited for us to turn up for it..

already apologise to both teacher bout this.. but im still unhappy!! urg!!

just came back home..

went city square walk walk till bout 8+++ than came back sg.. than they wan go mustafa than go lor.. went there walk walk buy tent, sleeping bag and goodies than went east coast.. lolx.. spent bout close to hald an hr to set up the tent.. so toot but at least it never fly away.. lolx..

kena bite on the hand and its damn big and damn f*cking pain and red.. zzz.. so mi and my guy left first at bout 7+++.. took cab home.. and that stupid uncle is rude.. RUDE!!!

dunno wad to sae.. i wan go sleep.. *yawnz

yesterdae went msia with my mum and jerome.. to pay respect to 4 people..~
my dad, grandma etc..

didnt wanted to call the office to inform.. cos im 100% sure that they will question why so last min etc.. actually wanted to go in the mornin than come back in the afternoon. but rome finish sch at 12.. so instead of lettin them put mi on hold and ask another person whether i can be put under inform.. i just called and report mc.. why cant they trust their staff more??

damn tired after everythin is done.. went shoppin and dinner than came home.. reach home bout 7+++ and was freakin tired..

slept at 3am+ and woke up at 11+.. goin jb wib my guy and my sup.. lolx..~ dunno wan do wad oso.. zzz

kinda bored and tired..

gonna request 1 weekend off to gain back a bit of freedom.. but samantha workin.. bet she will ask mi accompany her to work. maybe alternate will be a good option..

currently my schedule is 3-10.. but for the pass 2 weeks.. the earliest i get to go home was 10.30.. -.-"
in the pass i work 5 or 6 till 11.. if i start late i get to go home and rest.. but now is lyk i rush home change and off i go..

ttz the main reason why at time..or should i say many times.. im reluctant to go work.. im tired.. totally tired..

even when got gathering or wad ever.. i can only go if i fake some stupid reason or mc~

why did i even start workin??

feelin so tired.. wake up at bout 7 altho school starts 10..cos nid to pass samantha bf his report.. -.-"

than hang out in student hub doin nth but just rot.. after school sam treat mi to earthquake at swensen.. cos she take pay.. hahaha.. wanted to order other stuff but too full liao..

now at work.. my guy in front of mi.. lolx.. but seeing him i wan to sleep.. -.-"
my eyes are closing...

bloggin in the office.. so bored..

nothin to do man.. just do a 1-2 min task every 10 mins.. remainin time play game.. online.. msn.. sms.. zzz

lolx.. simple task but boring.. hahahaha.. man are nv satisfied.. simple oso gt somethin to sae.. too busy oso wan complain.. lolx.. dunno wad im thinkin..

lucky gt bring things to kill to boredom and now can tok.. hahaha..

but.. im still bored..

went library todae wib jin tang & jess.. the purpose was to study.. at first i was thinkin wad i can study cos theres nothin for mi to.. haha.. than i thought of my jap~~

reach library, we sat there awhile than went mos burger for lunch.. haha.. end up jinjin play game wib her lap top and all of us started playin till about to no batt.. decided to come my hse to continue.. so we din study at all~ took lots of pics and play mahjong and cards..

haha..

watch flushed away after school..

yet im still home at 3.. -.-"

so bored..

maybe i should not have work..

maybe i should not have make certain decision or sae certains things..

maybe?

had a so call nightmare last nite.. woke up from it and feel that ive not sleep at all.. than the dream seems so real..

went back to sleep and when i wake up.. i cant recall the dream at all.. all i know is bout being trapped.. urg!! todae feel better.. gave some stupid excuses not to go work.. wan to watch show.. than todae gt the final episode oso.. and of cos.. i dun wish to see him yet.

my tiredness & dilemma.. who can understand??

onli me myself and I

my head is bursting apart..
my tears is flowin non-stop..

i will argue wib myself..

one side of me argue to stay..
another side of mi argue to leave..


time after time things doesnt seems to change.. im still that attitude mi.. and u..?

yesterdae kena the rain..

todae oso kena the rain..

tomorrow??

i feel the tiredness both physically and mentally.

a tiredness that i dunno how to describe..

todae i was so so so pissed off~~!!!

firstly in the mornin, yx sae he gt dental appointment than will be late for lesson~ so fine.. since locker key with him and there's 5 people de AOA book inside.. mi and sam went to photocopy for all..~

than fine!! sam went to pass devi a copy of the photo copied paper.. and guess wad!~ she tell sam no need cos her book not in the locker.. WTF!!~? than she cum tell mi than her bk in another locker.. than i ask why she nv sae.. she sae i nv ask..~ than i shoot back lor.. "u are suppose to call mi back just now.. than wad? now my fault?" than i just walk off..~~i now it's a small issue.. but sum up everythin plus my bad mood~ it just happen..

so this nvm..~ next thing.. walkin to the AOA cls.. i saw yx standin outside the class? din he sae he will be late? if you arent cant u inform? so i dun hab to so ma fan photo copy??~! common sense will noe that i cant possibly photocopy the things after marketing lesson~~ where got time.. i wld hab appreciate it if he will update that he wont be late..zzz

lastly.. the damn attachment things~~ went to ask the teacher some stuff and guess wad she sae? she's not goin to access my IAP!! why? cos no communication between her and my workin place..~ she ask mi to get my supervisor to email her.. but i alrdy told her she cant.. and HELLO!!~~ u got my office number.. cant u call??!~ not till i completed the report and presentation and u tell mi all this shit~ i could hab use the time to sleep noe?? bloody hell..not everyone can sleep so mani hrs a dae k..

than i just tell her that nvm.. i will throw everythin into the bin!!~ and i walk off..

forget to add this: mi and sam was tokin and suddenly she sae no wonder devi nt anxious over the AOA things.. cos it not her prob..

**AOA is a damn important subject.. with a strict teacher.. and without the book..you cant get anythin done.

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such a suay day.. f*ckin suay.. #$^*)
and i broke down in school~~zzz